Failure ~

I'm a person who are failure ~ failure in love , failure in friendship , failure in family love ~ sometimes , I think , thats be great if I never appear in this world ~ feel like wanna go suicide ~ but I scared ~ I did't have that courage ! and did't had any reason to let me died !! I'm not yet filial piety ~ I need to help my mom although sometime argue with her ~ I hate everything about myself ~ hate hate hate !!! really really hate !!!!!