~ incoming call ~

hey ~ you had called me today ~ haha ~ shock when I saw my phone show out your name ~ since after you had girl friend , you didn't called me at all ~ but that time I'm in the car , can't said too much ~ you also can guess it ~ 

'' what are you doing ?'' ''umm .. in the car'' ''why ? '' ''lol ~ going home'' ''are you driving ?? '' ''nope , not dare .. mom is driving .'' '' haha .. I know , xP '' ''lol ~ very free ?'' ''yaa .. so called all of my FRIEND ..'' ''oic ~ where's your girl friend ? '' ''not free'' ''no wonder lar ~ '' ''why ? lol ~ why must everyday on phone ? will boring want '' ''yaa meh ? (that time you call me everyday) '' ''yaa lah ! long time didn't chat with you already mar '' '' en ~ :) '' ''why so quiet ? '' ''umm .. '' ''can't on phone ? because your mom at car ?'' ''yaa ~ hee .. clever =) '' ''okay lah !! I called you tomorrow , bye .. '' ''en .. bye ''

I know ~ you won't called tomorrow ~ but never mind ~ I'm not mind at all ~ ;) but i feel happy that I'd hear your voice today ~ you know ? I miss your voice so much ~ hee ~

Failure ~

I'm a person who are failure ~ failure in love , failure in friendship , failure in family love ~ sometimes , I think , thats be great if I never appear in this world ~ feel like wanna go suicide ~ but I scared ~ I did't have that courage ! and did't had any reason to let me died !! I'm not yet filial piety ~ I need to help my mom although sometime argue with her ~ I hate everything about myself ~ hate hate hate !!! really really hate !!!!!

the death of Alviss Kong ~

This is not the first time we’ve heard of people leaving a suicide note in Facebook. Alviss Kong did that to show his love for her girlfriend (4 months relationship) after their breakup by posting a message on Facebook talking about a 45 minutes countdown before he jumped off a 14th floor building in Ketumbar Heights, Cheras, Kuala Lumpur.

It happened in his house and he was pronounced dead on his way to the hospital.

Few hours before his suicide, he posted in facebook whether he should commit suicide or not. However, his friends thought that he was just fooling around. A few of his friends in the end took this seriously and beg him not to do it..

I guess he really show his love to BinLuii Binluii (his girlfriend) how much his love is worth. His life….

this news report on Chinapress, a local Chinese Newspaper reporting about it that the guy passed away 9AM in the morning just yesterday.

Alviss Kong’s last note

feel sad when I read the news ~ I cried ~ feel pity to the girl , the guy and his family ~ really hope this kind of things won't be happened again ~ that guy is handsome ♥ I will cherish if I get it ~ but the feeling cant't be force ~ 

feel sad ~ sad because of the guy's family ~ hope you all can be strong ~ because this is the choice that he decide ~ I think he won't regret ~ so , restrain their grief ~ and alviss kong , rest in peaces ~ hope you will cherish yourself in the next life ~

before exam & after exam ~

before exam , I felt scare and nervous ~
after exam , I felt scare , nervous and worry ~

I worry about my result , scare about my result , felt nervous to know my result ~
I though I will relax after I took the exam ~ but I'm wrong ~ I really scare about it ~
I felt the examiner trying to helped me , but .................. I can't help myself ~
I know , I will fail my aural test , I think the examiner also felt it , so , he gave the simple sight reading to me , no sharp , no flat , its C major ~ but I ....................................... aicks ~ ~ ~

I don't want to fail it ~ but ~ ~ ~
hey !! the examiner looks like KFC that old man ~ haha ~
I try to think positive ~ but I scare will have a big disappointment ~
what should I do now ? suddenly feel don't want to continue study already ~ LOL ~ EyenYap !!!! PLEASE !!! DON'T SO LAZY !!! may be the dean's wife is true , business and piano din't have any relation ~ is it wasting my time ? but just for knowledge !! aicks ~