好累

小時候⋯以前⋯

恍然中發現'以前'離我好遠⋯

朋友告訴我說我很直，臉上永遠會展露出心裡的想法⋯⋯

我笑了笑說，那是以前⋯

到底是什麼讓我開始善於偽裝？所面對的人事物？

能確定的是，我永遠都會對著學生家長偽裝出自己很成熟很😂

其實，我真的很累⋯⋯

好想回到小時候，回到那一個完整的家裡

家裡住著的就只有家人

這樣其實會自私嗎？

我確實不可能會陪著媽媽一輩

但我也不希望有一個會外人在家裡進進出出⋯⋯⋯

我和媽心中也因為她而出現了芥蒂

有時真的覺得我的家真的不像家😞

更覺得我像一個外人

尤其是在公公的家裡時～

我真的很想回到小時候

那個爸爸媽媽給的溫室裡

爸，我真的真的真的很想你 😭

Dad, love you :'(

Daddy ~ are you alright now ?
super miss you ~
Dad, please forgive me everything that i'had done wrong to you.
forgive that not really to cherish ~
dad, when can us meet again ? 
is there any chance ?
i hope i still can be your daughter. 20 years for us doesn't enough.
i miss you dad ~
miss everything about you ~
miss your face ~ your voice ~ your shadow ~
i know there is no chance for us to meet again ~
dad, we will miss you forever ~ cause you're the best in our heart~
dad, love you :'(

DAD, LOVE YOU FOREVER ♥

親愛的天父.. 我不是因為爸爸有事才向您禱告的.. 在爸爸還沒中第二次風時, 我向您說過我很滿意現在的東西, 我求您保護我的家人, 我不想您拿掉現在我擁有的所有.. 可是主啊, 為什麼您要帶走我爸爸 ? 為什麼您要讓他再次的生病及受苦 ? 記得那時, 我每天的看著躺在病床上昏迷不醒的爸爸, 我們多麼的心疼.. 主啊！您如果不讓爸爸生病，那該多好啊？我知道冥冥之中，主您之有安排.. 您帶走了爸爸，請求主您把爸爸留在身邊，別再讓他受苦了！求您了主！

爸爸，為什麼您堅持了那麼久，最後還是放棄了？在多麼痛的針灸及 massage 你都會堅持繼續！手術你都熬過了！為什麼還是要放棄？是不是您知道，當醒來之後會身體動不得？爸爸，你知道嗎？我們都很想念你！真的好不習慣！爸爸！你不是我們的負擔，真的不是！說開了，我才是你們的負擔！

我說了，明年要帶你和媽媽出國，去 ah tian 舅舅那邊，為什麼你不給機會我？還記得最後和你說的話就是你叫我找東西， 我還很不耐煩的在心裡嘮叨.. 對不起爸爸！很慶幸的是你昏迷的那個星期，我有天天到醫院，要不然現在想看您都不能了！爸爸，你知道嗎？真的很不捨得你，洋洋還天天都提起你，問媽媽為什麼要騙他，騙他說你睡醒了就會回家.. 他還流眼淚說很想你！也叫全部人不要忘記你！

當醫生說你的心臟再不自己跳，他就會放棄救你，我當時多麼希望那是一場夢.. 爸爸，你走得太快了，我們一點心理準備也沒有！你出事的那天，你還把家裡壞的東西都弄好了.. 爸爸，我不想忘了對你的感覺，我不想對你模糊！怎麼辦？你可以回來麼？我真的恨想你！

給您的最後驚喜！爸爸，以前送你的錢包你都不捨得用，沒用過！剛送給你的衣服你都還來不及穿，只能穿著上路了！
瞧！你多開心丫！可往事只能成為回憶 ~ : (

MISS YOU FOREVER DAD ! FORGIVE ME THAT I NEVER SAID LOVE YOU SINCE WHEN I GROWN UP ! I LOVE YOU DAD ! ♥

Oversea AGAIN !!! ♥ - KOREA ♥

YEAH YEAH YEAH !!!!! GONNA OVERSEA AGAIN !!!!!
Last year = Australia ♥    This year = Korea ♥    Next year = Scortland ♥
Muahahahahahha....... Freaking happy......but....... need waste money AGAIN !!!
OH GOSH !!!  :( 
Never mind, ask hubby to sponsor me !! ♥
Finally can oversea with hubby and without family. haha
Sorry mom, next year sponsor you and dad go ADELAIDE ♥


KOREA !!!!!! WAIT ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Contented ♥

Came back from Australia already few month ! But now still miss the everything at there ! ♥
Totally had use all my vitality ! But now academy there wanna organize a trip to SCORTLAND ! Means I need to waste + RM 15000 !!! I'M NOT WILLING LO !!!!!
But also need to go and upgrade myself !! Can't always live at this grade and level !

Really not understand why the foreigner want to visit M******* ! Really feel a**** to M*******'s g******** !
If got chance, I will try my best to migrate ! Just like my uncle. xD  but I know that it's not easy for me : (

Recently have few friends try to broke up their relationship. haix. although already in love more then six seven years !
Many elder and friends told me that I'm very lucky ! Even said that I can't find a boy just like HIM ♥
But also got some people feel like very jealous and said after marry then all will be the different ! HAHA : D
I trust HE won't ♥
Actually I really feel that I'm very lucky !
Because the god gave me a warm family, a healthy body, a great job and a sweet relationship ! Although just have few friends, but I know they are treat real to me ! Thanks ! ♥

I need to change myself, transform to be independence ! And also need to be very generous to everyone ! Include them xD
Learn not to hate, learn to love, learn to forgive, learn to tolerate ♥

I know it not easy for me ! But I will try to do it !!

Anyway, SCORTLAND !!! WAIT FOR ME !!! XD ♥

一个字形容我 ! ''烦'' !!!
最近不知怎么搞的, 都好倒霉噢 !!
首先就是接到其他老师问题学生,
然后就是不肯配合,
再来就是不说道理,
跑去老板房间拍桌子!
幸好我有告诉过他们的 kes 给老板娘听 !!
要不然..................................

真的很烦很烦 !!!!
没错, salary 是很高,
可是要知道, salary 越高, 烦恼也就越多 !!
应该说是压力吧 !!
××××× 我真的给你害惨了 !!
应该不止我吧 !!
很矛盾, 想你回来, 又有点不想.
想, 是因为我不喜欢接手其他老师的学生.
不想, 我不想再帮你收拾残局 !!

曾经我确实救过几个学生,
但是不好意思,
我不是神,
这一些我也尽了力.
活不活, 也只能靠他们 !

hubby 要生日了 !
做了一个 photo album 给他 !
可是, 我竟然倒霉到,
那个商家告诉我没有 stock 了 !!
要等到 middle of july 才能拿到 !!
拜托 !! 我等不及了 !!
所以也只能吃亏点,
给钱买便宜 .

HAIX !!!!!!!!!!


最近又跟她吵架了 !
我也只能用一个字来形容她,
''偏心'' !!
我知道你疼我, 可是要是有了''他''的介入,
你就变得很不说道理.
我也看开了.


而我的人际关系呢 ?
可以说差不多.
但至少和她们都可以放开来说.

对不起, 一时冲动的那个 post 伤害了你.
但也谢谢你告诉我,
你不想讨厌我, 也做不出讨厌我那件事.

我的人生也许就是那么的失败 !!

但唯一让我庆幸的是,
我认识到你 !!
真的真的很幸运 :)

update ♥

wow ~ 好久都没 update 了 ~ ~ ~

太多东西发生了最近  ♥

放假了一个星期, 整个人懒了起来. 差不多每天都和朋友 and 哈比出去 '' wed '' ~

哈比, 我和你有一年多咯 ♥  说短不短, 说长不长  ♥
 need to appreciate that you're always accommodate me. thank you so much !! I love you ♥

最近有打算买车  ♥  honda accord  ♥  my dream car  ♥  haha ~ ♥
但是  哈比  说买屋子会比较好  ♥  多几年吧. 反正我知道你想和我同居 ♥

sometimes I will think that do I regret because of quit study ?? NOW, I SURE I WON'T !! 反正读了出来也不知道会做什么工.
salary 不到一年就可以有 1 字头 2 字头的 ♥

now I need going to save all my money for this august - september trip to australia ♥
actually I'm don't really want to go, because I'm not be willing to '' piak dai '' my hubby alone in Kuantan :(
不过·, 有得玩谁不去玩 wor ~~~ ;p ♥

哈比  ♥  我要和你天长地久  ♥  forever 甜甜的 ~ ♥

谢谢你对我的包容, 我会很珍惜很珍惜我们这段爱情的 ♥

I'm not only wanna be with you in this life, for the next life, next next life, and the future life, I also wanna marry with you !! ♥